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Time:10:19 pm
New journal.

ryan_damage

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Current Music:Circle Takes the Square -A Disclaimer To The Seller
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Subject:Bored Bored Bored
Time:12:06 am
Today was really dull. Only one remotely exciting thing happened. I tried to call Cassie because I felt like talking to someone but she didn't answer and so life went on. Came home and my brother was here with about four of his friends, sitting down stairs... while my mother was shoveling the driveway. Turns out she didn't even ask him to do it, what the hell.

I've been really uncreative lately. I have one, I think, really neat idea for a stencil, I just need to hone my drawing skills more. Since I suck and all.

I took everything off of my walls a few nights back. Well, everything except for my five Clash posters, my Crass poster, my Army of Darkness, Interview With The Vampire, and 12 Monkey's posters. It's so bare and bright in here now. I'm not quite sure why I did it. I suppose I just wanted some change.

I even sat in a crappy Yahoo Chat room for a while. I hate everyone. Not really. But it's late and I'm not tired and ugh.

I watched the Fly earlier think I'm going to go watch The Fly II.
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Time:12:35 am
On another side note, the new This Bike Is A Pipe Bomb album is fantastic.
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Current Music:This Bike Is A Pipe Bomb - Better Off Dead
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Time:12:31 am
The worst part about Herman's Hermits is theie pop sensibility. They were able to capture those feelings everyone of us hits so perfectly. So here are some lyrics that I've been feelinglately. Behind a cut because, well, just because.
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Everyones life is bittersweet
It's a door that opens wide
And no man can call himself complete
Till he's seen it from both sides

This door swings both ways
It's marked 'In' and 'Out'
Some days you'll want to cry
And some days you will shout

This door swings both ways
It goes back and forth
In comes a southern breeze
Or a cold wind from the north

This door swings both ways
Lets in joy and pain
In comes the morning sun
And then the evening rain

This door swings both ways
Lets in dark and light
Every day you make the choice
To let in wrong or right

When shadows fall
You must prepare yourself for sunshine
For everything there is an end
And so my friend you must be brave

This door swings both ways
Which one will it be
Will we live in happiness
Or dwell in misery

This door swings both ways
Lets in earth and sky
Make the most of livin'
If you're not prepared to die
Make the most of livin'
If you're not prepared to die

That one I decided not to put behind a cut because it's not depressing.

Yesterday wasn't too great of a day. Not terrible, but not fantastic. Evereyday can't be great. So I just chalk it up as another day. There is no reason to dwell on it or what went wrong. Because honestly, I'm not sure where I went wrong yesterday. I think it was just seeing how happy she is not that she doesn't have the burden of me. This would have all been easier if I had tired of her at the same time she tired of me. But I didn't, so it's not easy. But I'm pushing on and fuck anyone who faults me for that. Anyone who feels the need to talk about me or call me anti social, fuck you, I'd rather not sit at home alone. While I may not be talking to everyone, it's nice to be outside and not alone.

On to better things. Went to see Arsenic and Old Lace last night, they did a pretty good job with it. Then came Kickball, but I ruined myself for that. Today I worked on my truck all day. Got the fender on, realized I forgot to order a part for the headlight, realized fender won't let hood close, and mounted/installed heater underneath dash. So it was fairly productive.

That's it. Watched some Aqua Teen. Think I'm going to go watch some more right now.

Oh yeah, to everyone who likes Against Me! Get on Soulseek and download the stolen demo with their new un named stuff. It's undescriabley good.
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Subject:Note to self:
Time:12:26 am
Get over her.
Get over yourself.
Move on with life.

So I drove myself into a bad mood tonight. The one person who could have helped didn't. And I'm happy I cooled down really fast, because that's when I do things I regret.

Tomorrow is another day. Or rather today, but the idea works the same. Fuck the future.
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Current Music:Leftover Crack - Clear Channel (Fuck Off)
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Time:08:24 pm
Today really sucked. Well, not the entire day, just the three or so hours after I got off of work. But I'll get to that. The story of my update goes way back. Back to the time of Saturday.

I had decided I would drive up to Kansas City to see Born To Die play at GPAN. Due to a series of events, however, I did not get on the road untilafter one in the afternoon. I finally arrived in KC at about four. It was then that it dawned on me that I had come all this way without directions. No big deal, KC is easy to find. But the important part was, I didn't know where I was or even where I was supposed to be going. I could see the city off in the distance and decided my best bet was to make for that direction.

So I drove and wound my way through city streets all the while taking in the glorious graffiti. Then I saw a building that was particularly covered and it intrigued me. Then I saw it's sign. Then I saw that wonderful word, Infoshop. Crossroads Infoshop, to be precise. A radical bookstore, my day is saved. From there they pointed me in the direction of The Stray Cat.

The rest of the day was spent with the BTD members just driving around. This is because the confrences and classes and meetings bore me. I really wanted to see them rock this place. And at about eight or so, they fucking did. I can easily say it was the best show of their's that I have seen yet. Everybody in the joint was moving and really into them. Even had a nice little circle pit going.

After the next band played I took off. I had taken my brothet's car and he needed it in the morning. After almost running out of gas in the middle of nowhere, I finally made it home around one-thirty. Went upstairs and passed out.

Sunday sucked. Just the day part really, and only because I hate myself and insist on making my life a living hell. Then night came and I talked with Cassie and all was well with the world.

Monday was a fantastic day Work was, well, work. Cassie called me and we agreed to do something. We went to the Waffle House and talked and then down to a park and talked. After getting scared we took off for her house and watched Saved. It was pretty good. The best part however, was just having the feeling of someone next to you. We just laid around and it was great. I still want her back, but I think I'm getting used to the fact that she doesn't want me back. So that's good.

Tuesday I didn't feel like ruining my great mood with work, so I didn't go. Yeah.

Wednesday.

Today. Work wasn't bad. But then the rain fucked things up and I lost a tire and it took hours to find, re-mount, and re-attatch a new one. Fuck FireStone.
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Time:09:39 pm
After seven minutes I decided I was tired of this entry. And to cheer things up:

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Time:09:04 pm
Semagic wouldn't work last night when I was in the mood. Now it works and I feel no urge to write. Brilliant. Oh well, South Park time.
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Subject:Check check check check check check 'em out
Time:10:03 pm
I don't know what I expect. I guess it's just for everything I want to fall into my lap. That would be the only explanation as to why I sit around here doing fucking nothing all day. I get discouraged and that's it. I throw in the towel. And on top of that, I'm an asshole. I just need to get over all this shit, and get over her. The part that really pisses me off, I still want her so bad. The emotional attatchment isn't so bad, as the physical attatchment. It wasn't like this when I was with her. And now I can't get her out of my head.

I need to move out of this fucking house.

I would be fuming were it not for Soophie Nun Squad and their beatboxing antics.

Fuming at myself.
[as], you better fucking cheer me up.
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Subject:Lamer.
Time:10:10 pm
I'm so lame, here it is just after ten on a Friday night, and I'm having trouble staying awake. I was going to go into this whole rant on, well pretty much everything. Which is a standard in my rants. But I think I'll do it tomorrow.

I'm just happy I'm not such a whiny bitch as I was last night.
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